Holiday Update

Hello readers! I apologize for not writing for a little while, I promise I will write a good long entry all about my holidays and how I did with my diet!! Hopefully I'll find time tomorrow, check back :)

An Amazing Day :)

Today is a great day! It all started with a great weigh in at the Dr Bernstein clinic, I am now down a total of 21.8 lbs, which means I am only 7 lbs away from meeting my mini goal for the New Year! Then as I was walking back to my car to head to work there was a $5.00 bill laying on the ground, so I looked around and saw nobody so I picked it up. Free money is always a great thing no matter the amount! Then I was super nervous for a work presentation in front of about 10-12 people so I was feeling anxious all morning, but I rocked it! My manager gave me great feedback and said I did an excellent job! I am just on top of the world today and nothing will bring me down (not even the fact that everyone else left and I am stuck with the old hag of a supervisor for the next two hours lol). I am going to go home and clean my house until it's spotless and get rid of all the garbage bags full of stuff I've de-cluttered because tomorrow I'm having a friend over and I've sort of let my place go a little bit! It happens though! I just hope that I can keep up this great attitude and ignore all the BS surrounding me. I cannot control what others do I can only control how I react and what I do. Cheesy, I know, but it's good words to live by! I also got an email giving me a month of free calling on  my Skype account, how great is that?? I can now talk to my dad for free until the New Year! I definitely think Skype is the best thing I've ever discovered! The long distance rates are crazy cheap and will make it super easy to stay in contact with my dad while he's in Seattle for the next couple of years! And my mom also emailed today to say that her stubborn, childish husband actually agreed to order an iPod for my Dad! I just need to upload some songs for him (he has no computer) and send it to him! He's absolutely going to love that and I am in such shock that my step dad even said he'd order it for him, he hasn't been very supportive of anything to do with him. I simply cannot stop smiling today! So many things are going well and they just keep getting better and better! I hope this is all a sign that all these changes I'm making are going to make my life a whole lot better and happier! I guess it's more of a frame of mind, but people simply cannot fight being happy when good things happen to people who deserve them.

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How Mature....Not!

Well, I am one of those people who has a senior citizen boss that acts like a child! Thankfully she is super ancient and retiring within the next year or so. She is just one of those really negative people who come to work and like to make others feel like they're one inch tall. She's always complaining about people and talking unprofessionally about business partners we deal with. And on top of that she is constantly demeaning the manager and saying what a tool he is, smooth move to treat your boss like that! I think the only reason nothing has been done is because she is so close to retirement and nobody cares to make waves with her. She spends her entire work day playing solitaire and huffing and puffing as she trots around in her stillettos. Like what 65 year old woman should be wearing stillettos? None in my mind but whatever floats your boat. And I feel as though she waits all weekend to come to work and talk about her stupid kids and grandkids, telling 5 or more people the sames stories over and over. And she also lies and exaggerates things to make it seem like everything and everyone in her life are the most amazing people to ever grace this Earth and they could never do no wrong! Unfortunately I cannot wear both earphones with my iPod so I turn the one up super loud in hopes that I can drown out her muppet voice. I have never met someone so inconsiderate to others who puts themselves and their family on such a high horse. She is condescending and rude, on top of being super old fashioned and judgemental. When I advised her about my involvement with Dr Bernstein because I might have to be a couple minutes late I regretted it almost the same day. She told me how she was telling her daughter that it was a starvation diet and that it was impossible. She then continued to always check out what I was eating and ask if I had cheated. She has died down with those comments but she's still a horrible old hag about everything else. She's one of those people who wants EVERYTHING to go through her, even if it's the most unefficient process ever. I will be celebrating big time when she annouces her retirement! There are so many things that could be done better and easier but because she's such an old witch she refuses to change her ways, and that affects everyone around her. It's so hard no to be affected by her, and today is one of those days she's definitely gotten to me. I'm to the point I don't even care if I don't hear my phone, I'm putting both earphones in and tuning out for the day! We have our Christmas lunch today and I am sitting completely away from her, and then I have a meeting so I won't have to deal with her for most of the day hopefully! I am going to try to find my centre and just stay in the positive mood I started yesterday off with! Wish me luck! LOL

Great Success!!!

Well this morning was another weigh in at the Dr Bernstein clinic and I am now down a total of 20.0 lbs!!! So happy with my progess and just want to keep this momentum going. I have about 7 months left to go and I can definitely do it! I have 8.8 lbs to go until I meet my mini-goal that I have set for myself to hit before the New Year, which is definitely going to happen! I am having such a great morning. And this weekend was great. I got my hair done and all fixed up (I had a horrible run in with a stylist a couple months ago), spent the day shopping with my Mom on Saturday and we found the amazing jewellery box that I wanted and it was on sale!! It was the last one they had! So we got it, but I don't know when I get to have it! LOL Oh well, I know that I will have it one day soon! I also went out for my friends birthday. I definitely wanted to have some drinks and have fun, but I did end up having quite a bit of fun and was able to come home and sleep in my own bed!!! And I didn't feel like crap when I woke up the next morning! And nobody really razzed me about not drinking so it's definitely important to have supportive friends who understand. I just brought some drinks that I could have like Coke Zero, a fizzy zero calorie berry drink from Costco, and some Crush diet cream soda and put it in a cup and you would never tell that I wasn't drinking. The only hard part was when I drove the birthday boy home and they requested a stop at 711 to grab nachos, a hot dog, pizza, and various other greasy things that sounded and smelled great! But so not worth it for me right now so I just dropped them off and went home to bed. It also helped that my friend came with me and she is really careful about what she eats and wasn't having many drinks because she had to work. We're definitely in the same boat so it was nice to have her along! I cannot stress enough to surround yourself with positive people who bring you up and support your life changes. I then proceeded to de-clutter my life on Sunday. I went through all my CD's and burned them into my iTunes library so that I could pass on my CD book. I'm going through every nook and cranny in my place and going through stuff to get rid of the unnecessary junk. I want to have supreme organization and serenity at home. Over all, I had a great weekend despite feeling a little defeated on Friday. So keep motivated people and I'll keep updating how things are going! I am overcoming life's obstacles and succeeding whilst I do it! Happy days :)

No Change!

Well, got weighed this morning and no change! How frustrating!!! But I guess you can't always win and the body will do what it wants in it's own time. The nurses said that it might be because "that time of the month" is coming up, I could just be storing water weight, or who knows. But I am hoping Monday I have a nice drop. I'm thinking some light work outs this weekend and perhaps a sauna (in case it is water weight). LOL I went through all my clothes last night and surprisingly have a nice range of pants and shirts to wear as I lose the weight. That should help keep costs down until I'm quite a bit smaller! It'll be nice to have to say bye to some clothing because they're TOO BIG! Although there are some items I'll be sad to say goodbye to! But I'm getting healthy and will have a way bigger selection of what I can wear and will hopefully be able to find similar things to some of my old favorites! Just in a WAY smaller size! I can't wait to be at the end and be able to look at the before and after of this! I think that anyone who's deciding to lose weight should definitely take a befores pictures so you can really see the difference yourself. I took one from the front with my arms up and away from body and then a side shot as well. And make sure you wear something that is form fitting and doesn't add bulk so you can see the real you. If you're brave enough take some in your undergarments. It's crazy though because I am still wearing my old clothes and they don't seem to be that different in fit even though I've dropped 17 lbs already. Not too sure where it came off but I am hoping to see a change soon. I have 11.8 lbs to lose as my personal goal before the end of this month. That gives me 23 days, which I definitely think is doable! And that will give me a good head start on the New Year! And hopefully if I get below my year end goal before the holiday weeks I will stay motivated to stick to it 100% and avoid all those amazing holiday goodies! I will say that I will definitely miss the stuffing, mashed potatoes, and gravy!! Oh well, next year! As many say, nothing tastes as good as healthy feels!! Well I will most likely write more later since work is pretty dead otherwise I'l update more over the weekend! Happy getting healthy people :)

As always I welcome any comments and questions!

Things On My Mind

 Well great news, I'm down a total of 17 lbs now :) I go again to get weighed tomorrow morning. Slow and steady will win the race I think! I cannot wait to start seeing the weight loss on myself, or have people start noticing and commenting. So far everyone that I've visited or hung out with has been super excited for me and completely supportive of my endeavour. It seems to just be easier to bring my meal if I'm not home for supper or whatever, most people try to be accommodating but it's just so much to have to have them do to go out of their way if they're cooking their own meal on top of it. I would really like to fast forward the next seven months so that this would be over with and I could learning out to maintain and begin enjoying my stress free life again! I cannot wait to feel more comfortable going to different workout classes and what not. I still get the odd comment from my horrid supervisor about losing weight and how this is a starvation diet. I definitely didn't fill her in to hear her opinion and should just keep her stupid trap shut! I guess next time I won't advise her about anything and will just tell her that I had a medical appointment if I am late. All I can hope is that the old hag retires soon!!

On another note; I think that people who wear workout pants to work as dress pants must not be that bright! I mean really, how professional do you think you look. And it's not like people can't tell that you're wearing spandex pants! And just because they don't cling to your body doesn't mean we don't notice either. And the funniest thing I find is that older people complain about it but yet I see just as many of them wearing the same crap to work! It's not appropriate! And if someone my size can find dress pants there is no reason that you cannot find a simple pair of black pants. They don't even have to be super dressy,  buy a pair of black khakis and you'll still look better than those slumpy ass workout pants! There is also the girls who think that just because they're skinny they can wear them skin tight (showing a camel toe) and riding up your ass. And to make matters worse they decide to pair them with a shirt that doesn't even pass the waist! This literally makes me puke in my mouth some days! It's funny how one person can think they're being dressy and everyone around them is secretly laughing at them. Get some common sense people, and maybe watch an episode of "What Not To Wear" or something! I have seen some seriously bad fashion throughout my finance career. The best is the full matching suits or outfits that are one color that old people seem to wear!! If you bought the clothing in the 70's or 80's and it was professional then it's definitely not in style or professional these days. My current supervisor has an outfit that I have dubbed the "Pepto Suit". It's a Pepto Bismol pink sweat and pant set that is one of the nastiest things I've ever seen! Then she tries to class it up by wearing her stilettos! HAHA! Oh my goodness people, really?? Then at my previous work there were multiple offenders. They would wear those elastic waist, pleated front, pants in all colors and patterns with nasty ratty sweaters and thought that they were definitely "business casual". SO NOT!!

I Survived

Well this weekend was the big Christmas party and I survived unscathed! I ate my protein and carbs right before I left and then when it was time to eat there I just filled my plate with salad and pulled my dressing out of my to go container in my purse and was fine with everything. I stuck to decaf tea and had one diet pop. It was overall a pretty fun night and I'm glad I went, it was nice to catch up with everyone and get out of the house! I did find it weird dancing though so I didn't partake. I felt super uncomfortable out on the dance floor, which I am guessing is because I cannot remember a time that I went out dancing where absolutely no drinks were involved. I hope that I can become more comfortable with it over time because I do enjoy going out and having fun! It's going to be a long 7 months if I don't ever go out and let loose! Everyone around me was supportive though and understood when I bowed out early around 11 PM.

At this mornings weigh in I was down a total of 15 lbs since I started this journey 20 days ago so I am happy and have a new found motivation. I know that the weight isn't going to drop like it did the first couple weeks so I just have to focus on the total amount of weight loss to date to keep myself motivated. My mom thought perhaps I should carry a bag around with that weight in it when I feel down; that just sounds like child labour if you ask me! LOL I find that just keeping busy and doing things is what will keep me motivated and then I won't just be bored and thinking of what foods I can't have. I think that going through all my closets, organizing my house, and getting rid of clutter will be a good exercise too. An organized house is a stress free house. And then maybe some heavy cleaning too!

Todays a busy day, so I have to run but I will try to write more tonight or tomorrow :)