Proud of myself!

Yesterday a girlfriend of mine and I  went to the Keg for dinner after work, and if you know me you know just how much I love the Keg and a good steak! Usually I would munch on the complimentary bread (and end up eating at least 2-3 pieces to myself), then sometimes order the baked garlic shrimp appetizer, a pina colada cocktail, the top sirloin with garlic mashed potatoes topped with three cheese butter, and then enjoy a yummy creme brulee for dessert. If I add that up that is a WHOPPING 3,225 calories!!! Not that I would eat that weekly but it just goes to show that you really need to educate yourself. Now it all makes sense as to how I got so big and to be honest I am disgusted with myself. Last night I made a lot better choices. I had a virgin pina colada, two pieces of bread, and the steak Oscar with all mixed veggies on the side. Total calories for that: 1,141!!! I am very proud of myself for making the better choices and still getting to enjoy my meal. Little things like that each day and each meal will slowly add up and in no time I will be dropping weight, getting healthy, and starting to have a better relationship with food. I want to enjoy eating healthy and learning to try new foods. One day at a time, I will get there!!

Ciao for now :)

An Off Day

Sometimes it's okay just to have an off day, and for me that day is today. Slowly starting to feel better but I think just sitting and having all this down time really got to me. I am hoping I can pull it together tomorrow and get back into my routine of working out and focusing on work. Until then...

Sick

Well today is a bit of a wash, still not feeling good :( This flu is kicking my butt, but I am down 3 lbs since Wednesday!! WHOOP WHOOP!!! 

Praying I feel better tomorrow :) 

No More Excuses

Today I stopped making excuses and pushed myself to do my workout this morning. Last night I started to not feel so well so I went to bed hoping I'd feel better in the morning but woke up and was instantly sick to my stomach. Not fun!!! But what did I do? Once I felt okay again I got my gym bag and work stuff together and headed to work for my workout!! The old me would have called in and thrown myself a pity party but no, I got my ass in gear and sucked it up. It sucked so bad and I only did a half a hour but it's better than nothing. However as my day progressed I was getting sicker and sicker so I called it a day and went home halfway through my workday. I'm slowly starting to feel better but counting calories while sick REALLY sucks so my solution?? Watch "My 600 LB Life" on TLC for motivation to stay focused and motivated. It is completely overwhelming how much love and support I have from people around me, it absolutely makes my heart happy!! 

Time to rest up so hopefully this weekend isn't a total waste!

Almost There!!

Well I'm almost through my first week of waking up early to get my workouts in and I'm feeling quite proud of myself!! I have been doing pretty good with my eating too this week. I should have weighed myself when I started tracking my food again but forgot :( But can't wait until next week to see how all my hard work is paying off!! Tomorrow I am also going skating after work so I will be burning LOTS of calories tomorrow, can't wait to finally get out on my skates and am hoping I don't fall and hurt myself! LOL It has been awhile since I've gone skating....


Will make sure to post about all my Friday fun tomorrow!!


Ciao <3

Am I Growing Up??

Today is day three of waking up and busting my butt in the gym, so proud of myself and hope to keep this momentum going!! I weighed myself again last night so at least I am aware of where I am at. As much as it sucks to see the number on the scale I know that it's only a starting point and I need to harness those negative feelings and turn them into motivation. I can't wait for the day that I actually enjoy working out and can see a change in my fitness abilities. Currently I am just doing cardio to get myself going, eventually I will also add in some weights to tone and build muscle. I am starting to get better at pulling myself out of bed too, does this mean I'm growing up?? And hopefully this doesn't mean that I won't be able to sleep in on the weekends I don't work! lol Happy Wednesday everyone, hope you all have a fantastic day :)

Ciao for now!

XOXO

Good Morning :)

Well I am two for two this week so far for getting my butt moving and getting my morning workout done. I think I am going to set a goal to burn 500 calories each morning rather than a time limit to allow myself variety. Today I decided to do 15 minutes of high resistance recumbent bike riding and then it only took 33 minutes on the treadmill at a high incline to burn the remaining calories. I'm feeling good and happy!! I also ordered myself some new gym gear from Old Navy (I love their stuff and they have tall length clothing online). I got myself three new pairs of leggings and a sports bra. I do need to look for some new t-shirts to wear though until hopefully one day I feel more comfortable just wearing a tank top! Oh the joys of being fat and worrying about how you look no matter what activity you are doing. I also find my face turns red almost instantly no matter how vigorous the workout, I blame that on being basically albino!! lol 

Well that's all for now, wish me luck on the rest of the week :) I know I can do it!!!

Ciao xoxo

Goals For 2016

I figured it would be a great idea to publish some of my goals for 2016 so here goes:

1. Lose 80 pounds by working out and eating better

2. Be able to run 5km's without stopping

3. Pay off consumer debt

4. Make extra vehicle payments

5. De-clutter my home and learn to live with less

6. Read 25 books

7. Go on my first all inclusive trip for my 30th birthday in September

8. Put myself first

9. Go camping at least three times

10. Become happy and confident with myself inside and out

Starting small, as I accomplish things I will add more :) Comment some of what your goals are if you'd like, would love to hear what you guys are trying to accomplish this year!! 2016 will be a great year for all, I can just feel it!

Goodnight xoxo

It's Never Too Late To Start Again!!!

Just like most of the human population I have failed to reach my goal of staying healthy and losing more weight, but you know what? That won't stop me from trying yet again to drop this weight and become healthier. I need to do it for myself, I need to do it a healthy way, and I obviously need to try a different approach than I've been doing before.

I think that new approach is going to be keeping it simple. Eat simple, move more, and create a routine so it takes the guess work out of it. I am using my 30th birthday in September of this year to be my target date to be back to where I was health wise in 2012, except that I am going to be doing it in a healthier and more sustainable fashion.

If you've read my blog at all you know I suck at mornings, but I have found the few times I have managed to get my big butt out of bed and work out in the morning that my whole day changes. I make better food choices and I have more time after work for myself to do whatever I so desire. Last week I had set my alarm early to try and get moving but I failed miserably, however today I was finally able to get moving and got an hour of cardio on the treadmill done before I had to start work. Now the goal for me is going to be doing at least 30 minutes of cardio each week day morning at the gym in the basement of my work. Don't worry, although it's in the basement our building was recently completely renovated and the gym is brand spanking new!! And was practically empty until I was just over halfway done my workout. And there is a change room and showers as well so all I have to do is commute to work, workout, and go upstairs. Wish me luck on getting this habit formed!

I sure do miss walking outdoors though, can't wait for Spring/Summer to arrive so I can walk to work and in the River Valley! Until then I will utilize my work gym, as well as my Fit 4 Less gym membership that is less than $20 a month, my workout DVD's and maybe try some random classes as well. Variety tends to help with staying motivated!

As for my eating, I have started using My Fitness Pal again, it helps because I am more accountable for what goes in my mouth. And no matter how many calories I go over my set goal I still must log everything and be realistic about my amounts, otherwise it simply will not work. Trying to cook more and prepare is also on my to-do list for getting healthy. When I do cook, it's usually fairly healthy. It's when I am working a lot of hours and get tired that I tend to let my diet slip and go for what's fast and convenient. I need to simply make the effort to get my meals made throughout the weeks and have healthy snacks on hand to combat random trips to the corner store or Starbucks. I won't be too hard on myself if once in awhile I indulge, it's a part of life. If I may, I  need to "stop and smell the roses" on my journey.

Even though the whole "New Year New Me"is so cliche I really do feel like I am changing into a totally different person, although my transformation really started at the end of October when I decided to quit smoking and give up my hard partying lifestyle for the most part. I still go out and have a couple drinks every once in awhile but gone are the days of partying all the time and being hung over for work (OMG I think I'm growing up!!). I have still not had a cigarette and am damn proud of that!! I have started to realize who are my friends and who really don't have my best interest at heart. I am really starting to question a lot of people who I thought were very important in my life. And I am working on my friendship with my best friend of many years after we had a falling out. Life is good and I am beyond excited to see what all I can accomplish this year. I have set many goals and plan to achieve most of them!!

Will keep you guys posted <3