Motivation

This morning I decided it would be a good time to step on the scale and see where my starting weight will be for this journey, needless to say it ruined my morning and was higher than I expected!! I guess I will have to use it as motivation to make better food choices and really continue to push my workouts more. Really put a damper on the fact that someone had complimented me saying how my face looked skinnier yesterday. I know I shouldn't let it get me down because it's just a number, but I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. I have SO far to go. I am going to try and focus on twenty pound goals to slowly break it down and make it seem more achievable. A number will not define me (or at least I keep saying this in my head). I just truly want to feel better, and after seeing my weight, I fully understand why my workouts have seemed way harder than they used to be. Because I've gained a lot of the weight I lost back. Well, even though it's May long this next weekend I am going to attempt to not eat like complete shit all weekend. I am going to prepare by bringing veggies and fruit to snack on. I'm also bringing my workout gear in hopes that I can get some walks in while I'm out there! I am excited to get in some nice relaxation time and time away from the city!! I have been working for far too many days in a row and cannot wait for some time doing absolutely nothing! And the best part is that I also took off the Tuesday, so I'll have all day to relax, do laundry, workout, and grocery shop. Should be good!

I've started a goal for myself, to walk 160 KM in 5 weeks. I'm already 10 KM down and have 31 days left to get the remaining 150 KM done. That's an average of 4.83 KM a day, wish me luck on that one! Hopefully I can bang out a couple nice long walks this weekend while I'm off. I've also been trying to walk on my lunch hours so hopefully that helps out a bit. I will definitely need to be doing some long distance walks to really get that goal achieved!!! And possibly do some second workouts in a day. Perhaps I can bust out a long walk on the treadmill easier than outside, especially since my calves have been bugging me so much!!

I'm thinking that the more I walk to easier it will get and the farther I can go. And that it also pushes me to eat better because I'm spending all this energy trying to improve my physical health so why put a cheeseburger in my mouth afterwards? I'm also trying to drink my Isagenix shakes more than I have been in the past to really boost my vitamin intake and have lower calorie meals. I really need to get back into the cleanse days as well to really boost weight loss and before you know it I will start to see results and hopefully clothing won't be as tight. I just want to get back to where I was two years ago, but in a healthier way of doing it. This time my hair won't fall out and this time it will be a lasting life change. 

People say that it takes three weeks to build a habit, well I am two weeks into it and feeling the momentum and motivation building. I just hope that I can stick to it until I see some results because that will become my motivation to continue. I want my clothing to start fitting better and I want to feel comfortable wearing whatever without having to wear a scarf to cover my "rolls". Oh the things us overweight people do to try and camouflage how uncomfortable we are in our own skin!!

As I am writing this blog post I have realized that this is day 13 straight of working out :) GO ME! Perhaps this is the beginning of the rest of my life (cliche I know!). 

Ciao for now, I must do another walk later to possibly do 10KM today!

Eden xoxo